Running Out of Time

Leigh A. Schmidt

Phillip    Hey Phillip    Hold up    Phillip wait   It is me Lucy

Lucy  Oh my God  Lucy is that you

Phew  stop moving away please Phillip  You can stop now  I am out of the wind catching up to you  No one else I have followed has moved so far so quickly Phillip

You’ve been following me  Seems like I have been running on a long time  I feel out of wind too  Jeeze Lucy I thought I heard you passed  A while ago Lucy  It has been so long  Two three months ago maybe So where are we now

Yes well

Glad to know it is not true  You caught up to me here    Where exactly are we   I am not sure I have ever been to this strange place before  The darkness is weird   Do you know where we are Lucy

Phillip I do

But you know it is actually good to see you again   See uhm    Wait  see what  Is it this darkness  I am having difficulty seeing

Phillip yes see again  Take a moment look around here  Use your feelings  Use what senses you have

Yes  So what am I seeing exactly   What is this place

Take your time  Adjust   You just stopped moving away   It is all very new   Strange is it not

More than that  confusing actually  How is it here How did we come to this place  Exactly where are we Lucy

Phillip hon  it is all so new  you have just stopped moving away   See the reality  Look beyond where you are

I am really confused  How   Where  I don’t recognize  But your voice calling out to me  The sound of your   Can I even

See  Yes  Hear  Yes  You need to pause a moment Phillip   Process

What is all this  Darkness  There  There is nothing more than Darkness  You  The sound of your voice  Wait Where

Here hon  Right here Phillip  I am

I cannot Lucy  I hear you  For some reason I cannot

You can   you are just beginning to

No  This is crazy  There is nothing Lucy  Nothing  Nada  Where is this Lucy  Where are we  You

You have been moving away so rapidly

Running yes  Away

No  Moving  I have stopped you  caught up   You have been moving away so quickly  Such a great distance quickly  Look around now  process

Where have you been Lucy  Me  In all of this  Just darkness  Me  Where am I  What am  What have I become Lucy

Yes You are sensing again  You are different from you before  Becoming now

Lucy  You  I cannot see  Thought you gone but here  Me I am here in this darkness  Where there is only

Confusion   That will clear soon Phillip   Soon with becoming

Becoming Lucy  My body  Your body  I cannot

Yes Phillip  You are seeing again sensing   Becoming

But my legs  am I without legs  arms  No body I see at all  What have I become  What am I Lucy  Is this not here  Nothing  You Am I imagining   I hear but

Becoming soon  Trust Philip  Become

Without  Even without   Where is my body Lucy

Becoming  Sensing  Recognize Phillip

What becoming  Here  Aware  Do I even  But you are here Lucy  You here with   Where

I hear your voice  Know your voice  I cannot see you either Lucy   How is this happening

You  I am here  With you Phillip  Before you to catch up to you Phillip  Bring you along  Understand Phillip

Lucy I can’t  Where is it you are Lucy  Invisible   But not hiding

Yes Phillip  We are  You still becoming

What  There is confusion Lucy    I need understanding

You need nothing   You are becoming

Becoming what  Where  Transforming    Am I

Yes Transformed

Transformed   Into what   When

No  Now becoming  Soon not to have me   Once you have become

Become what Lucy  Aware  Look Lucy my hands  Where are my hands  My arms feet  How can I travel here  Where is here   I am seeing darkness Lucy  Spots of

Light  Yes Phillip  It is you  Transforming   Becoming aware Phillip

I am

Yes Phillip  You are    Say it   Say it out loud   Say it   Call it out to creation  You Phillip are sensing becoming   Call it out to all of creation

Creation where  Surrounding us

Yes Phillip you are becoming.   Call it out to creation now

What Lucy   Some empty form  without arms legs body   Do I even have my head about me   A formless form calling out to the darkness

Yes Phillip  A new form   Transformed   Transitioned     Becoming   Aware Phillip

In name only Lucy

Yes  Phillip  What thought was it you remember   of the past you move away from

I do remember  You Lucy  Before me  Now

After you now Phillip  We are both here  Now   I have become before you  Do you recognize yet Phillip

Yes maybe Lucy  Becoming now here     Aware in this darkness  I am new spirit Lucy   Hear me Universe   I am new spirit   I am aware now

No attachment to before   You see

I am   Lucy  Aware now   I have become

No attachment to before   to me to you   You are Phillip  A guide am I    Lucy   To bring you awareness  This blessing of renewal   Phillip you are

I am but  Phillip

Still Phillip yes   No need to move away   Unless you desire

I am become

Yes Phillip   And I Lucy

Yes   Aware and become

Yes Phillip

I am Phillip

Yes Phillip  Yes    Free

Then Lucy I do not see you   I do not hear you    Do I

No  You are of the spirit now  I have been also Phillip

So I process as spirit   without sight  without sound  without touch  We communicate

As the Universe without distraction    but feeling   knowing

Yet I can   move

With the Universe   but free

Freely Lucy

Yes Phillip you have become fully aware    now Phillip

Then my being has freedom   to choose    to be

I have chosen guidance Phillip   Freely

You will leave me now then Lucy    Freely

I will Phillip  You have become   Philip

I am Spirit now  Then fare you well    Lucy

And you also    Phillip     Enjoy your way

I shall Lucy    I shall renew  freely


Leigh A. Schmidt
A seventy-nine year old man leaving the world of being owned for becoming free. A few college degrees, teaching, entrepreneur creating a mid-west winery in the past. Now celebrating the freedom he’s learn by keeping ahead of the effects of old age. So now he writes.

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